Saturday, November 8, 2014

my soul longs

as the deer pants for water, so my soul longs after you. 

I used to sing these words on Sunday mornings,
in a chorus full of other voices. 
I used to sing these words with a different understanding, 
believing that soul longing was something attained.

I used to pray that my soul would long for Him - like it was supposed to.
I used to misunderstand this hymn entirely.

as the deer pants for water, so my soul longs after you.

without question, without prayer, without trying,
my soul longs for you.
as second nature as an animals thirst,
my soul longs after you.

in my waking, in my sleeping
in my trying, in my failing
in my praying, in my hiding
my soul longs after you

you alone are my hearts desire, and I long to worship you.

you don't have to try and long for Him,
you were created to long for Him.
whether you want to or not,
whether you identify it as that or not,
your soul will always long for Him.

and it is in the realizing of our longing,
it is in the knowledge of our need,
it is in the accepting of our yearning,
that we begin to feel peace. 

you alone are my strength, my shield, to you alone, may my spirit yield.
you alone are my hearts desire, and I long to worship you. 

Thursday, October 23, 2014

prayers + praises (wk. 3)

should I even acknowledge it? or just continue as if a month hasn't passed...

where did September go? where did October go?

it seems that when my life shifts
it does so dramatically
and I’m straddling fault lines and trying not
to slip through the cracks.
friends, if you are someone who prays, I need them
i’m in the period of transition and i’m drowning

-that I may learn to manage my time as the treasure that it is
-that you may "give me the strength life demands,
and the humor with which to live it" ( to quote Song of Solomon) 
-that you may guide my steps, thoughts, and actions
so that I become a living example of your love and grace. 

praises for
-being one month into a new job
-being one month into school
-for giving me clarity and direction
-for filling me with your peace


Monday, September 15, 2014

the weekend something (wk. 2)

at this moment in time I'm sitting at my desk silently screaming because my computer casually deleted something I spent 2+ hours working goes on.

this past weekend?

something yum - what can I say, I'm a creature of habit, this weekends yum was also a burger and fries...because it is now and will always be my fave


something fun - my sweet friend and I took Roon to the Dungeness Spit for some beach hiking ... two hours after arriving we had made it exactly 15 feet from where we started. So much for the hiking but Roon had a great time splashing and we got all caught up on each others lives.

something done - Sunday I finally caved and picked up this day-planner ... because life is busy and I need paper and lists to make sense of it. 

how was your weekend? how is your monday?

Friday, September 12, 2014

this week.

this week I'm ... 

craving queso + a jalapeno margarita
listening to "Reign In Us" by Starfield 
catching up on "The Following"
falling behind on my Hosea devotions
weighing the pros and cons of this early education program
starting to plan my christmas gift giving
missing strawberries and blackberries
dreaming about pumpkin carving and apple cider
going to make that gelato
enjoying the last of the summer sunshine
looking forward to a saturday well spent

prayers + praises (wk.2)

week two - feeling particularly grateful this week!

-focus for the mountain on my plate
-continued prayers of safety for my friend Rachel
-guidance for my school situation
-smooth transitions into ...

- ... a new job that I'm indescribably excited about!
-carrying me through difficult conversations
-friends that come spend time with me and my tantrum throwing toddler
-weekend plans that include sunshine, pie and one of the best ladies ever


Tuesday, September 9, 2014

You Are Not Baggage

this goes for all of you
but especially you...

you aren't a mistake
a burden
an inconvenience
or a punishment

you aren't the result of a guilty conscience
or a ticket to heaven

you aren't a regret
you aren't a bad decision
you aren't an oops

you are the intricate design
woven in the hands of a master

you were planned
you have purpose
you are adored

you are the best gift
the greatest adventure
the longest laugh
the deepest love

never forget that

Monday, September 8, 2014

the weekend something

Mondays ... right?

As promised, I'm starting another regular blog feature/series today - and it's even more simple than prayers + praises.

allow me to introduce,  "the weekend something"

where I recap my weekend by sharing,

something fun - a fun activity I did
something yum - a tasty food I ate
something done - a "to do" list project I completed

this past weekend,

something fun - two days, two trips to the park

something yum - greasy fast food burgers

something done - upgrading Roon's wardrobe so she doesn't look like a ragamuffin